AnAshBlackSword

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the spiders make their way up my spine, ghost-like touches on the back of my neck - crawling, creeping sensations that make me feel colder than cold (frigid, grey wasteland) pick apart my identity with every time you use the wrong name, the wrong words - (and I stay up late until four in the morning watching the shadows move across the ceiling whilst the life crawls out my eyes until it's all dead) because every day is a living nightmare and every night feels like a day (the words haunt and worm and burrow their way through me and my soul is riddled with holes) sometimes my Mother tells me I look like the living dead so I bite my tongue

lay him down to rest (unfair) by AnAshBlackSword, literature

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lay him down to rest (unfair)

she's hoping for a miracle and she doesn't know why - the bird in her ribcage can no longer fly (because he's dying s l o w l y) long past the age of believing God, angels and unexpected good things exist, she's still hoping for something that could prevent the cold, grey mist (the void that is death) but the inevitable will happen and so she asks for him to just have eternal rest (because maybe God's not listening, or maybe there's just not enough miracles for anyone anymore)

one bullet, one life by AnAshBlackSword, literature

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one bullet, one life

midnight veils draped over a white porcelain doll face, cold china and crystallised blood shut eyelids and stiff body - the sickly sweet scent of flowers, flowers white as the corpse behind the glass and you can almost see the ghost of your own reflection, they march, one, two, one, two one, (one bullet, one life) two, (two seconds, too late) lowered down, down, down swallowed whole by the earth to rot away with time. (ashes to ashes, dust to dust)

Being Non-binary by AnAshBlackSword, literature

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Being Non-binary

They will be told it's a sin, that 'God hates gays,' and even though sexuality is different to gender, it's all once and the same to the narrow minded. They will be beaten up by the other kids at school, and picked on by the teachers, some days, they'll be told to kill themselves and go back to hell. They'll be told they don't exist and that there are only two genders, and you are what you were born as. They'll be told the only place for them is the mental hospital. They'll be attacked by the people they once called 'friends' and when they go to hospital, no one will come and visit. They'll die by their own hand, because after all, if e

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we crawl through dust on broken soul-bones, we have become hopeless and say our place is down in the dirt, cracked and withered with the scars of a thousand unlived dreams and 10 thousand lived nightmares, we have lived too many lifetimes, lost too much and loved too little to continue, so we toil by (mindless drones) and pray for the day we end. (but if we started looking up and not down, loved a bit more and cared a bit less, we could trust in ourselves and fly)

you can't catch the wind by AnAshBlackSword, literature

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poem for the missing by AnAshBlackSword, literature

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poem for the missing

I've sat for awhile staring at passing cars on the opposite side of the fence, maybe I am expecting to see you pass by, one more time, I want to give you a proper goodbye, wishing I'd realised that on a seemingly ordinary day, everything had changed and you would be long gone by Monday. I'm finding little meaning under the surface, we are falling apart at the seams - cracks in everything, in the sunlight, in the memories, between the still unfinished pages that will remain incomplete. It's like this; we cling and we hold onto people and they slip through our fingers like sand. We think we have learned to expect the unexpected and the

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Mirror Reflections (Poetry) by Solaresque, literature

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Mirror Reflections (Poetry)

Demon. I look upon myself in these Gleaming mirrors with a rational disgust, And I see this sick, rearing creature glowering back at me, Its jowls leaking with the fluid of its victims and its talons swathed in pus. (Neither is real.) And when I peer more closely, I see dulled eyes, serene, wizened, and soft Moist skin beyond the scars. I notice blue in my veins and a Fragile mortality reflected back at me— Here I am another. I am a— Human.

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Little Red Angel

I have a little red angel Resting on my sleeve And all day and night It whispers dirty deeds. I try to ignore it But each day it grows stronger And I don't think I'll be able To ignore it for much longer. It wants me to do things So horrid and insane And the very thought of listening Seems to me so inane. But the longer I hear it, The more it starts to make sense. It's like I almost believe When it says others are so dense, When it says other are corrupted And don't deserve this life, This gift that they've been given When they cause so much strife. And so the little red angel Says I should amend the shame, That I should demolish this problem

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Unfinished story

My story can no longer have a happy ending, the last chapter and every second page has been ripped out of the book. It makes no sense anymore, it´s unreadable, the content just doesn´t connect. Although you were the main character in it, you are now only written in the third person and past tense. The plot has gone stale and the risk of repeating things that have already happened is great. That´s what happens when the hero in the book dies before his time. For the characters left behind their part is still actual but somehow their world stops and they are left in limbo. Sad, so many stories left unfinished...... Written by Su

deceiving myself by Sunflowers-And-Fur, literature

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deceiving myself

back then, the night never told her shadow that she was the enemy; she wasn't lost and insecure, her stars weren't dimming. back then, words were foreign because her demons were fledglings, and her foundation to believe were a pair of black ballerina slippers. back then, she danced in a little upstairs room at a studio run by an instructor collaborating on a new era with old way of thinking. and to this day, one particular class still snags at her skin and yanks at her hair with a force of remembrance and idiocy. and to this day, she can still recall that smoothly running routine; and one of the more clumsy girls accidentally yanking do

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Mar 10
United Kingdom
Deviant for 9 years
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Ash | They/them | 14 - 18 yrs |

"Human loyalty is but a flower in the winds."

Favourite Visual Artist

eh. slenderman

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transformers

Favourite TV Shows

TRANSFORMERS PRIME. GO WATCH IT RIGHT NOW.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

SKILLET SKILLET SKILLET

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Ashes

Favourite Writers

ilsa j.bick

Favourite Games

minecraft, legend of zelda, slenderman, super mario world, DK country and DK country 2, yoshi's Island and guitar hero.

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Pen, Paper, Laptor and WIFI.

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Autobot Jazz :D

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AnAshBlackSword

May 6, 2015

A random question

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I've got a random question for anyone who is interested, and that is what do you think I look like? You can guess hair colour, eye colour, height and whatever else you think of and I'll tell you if you are right XDD This question has absolutely no importance or significance, other than I get really curious about the most stupid and random things XD So guess away! Also, how is everyone? Did anyone do anything interesting today? - Ash

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AnAshBlackSword

May 4, 2015

I'M BACK BITCHES

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if a weekend even counts as leaving?? I don't even know if it does, but I went off on holiday with my family to Scotland for a weekend and I turned off my phone and had NO WIFI, so that meant no DA or fanfiction or anything. So if you commented or favourited any of my work, I'm currently going through my 176 mail thingies so I might miss you or just kinda .... not reply because I'm EXHAUSTED. Please forgive me, I'm usually not this lazy (I promise!!), but I've also got some other stuff like EXAMS YIPPEE next week and my fanfiction readers will actually kill me if I don't update soon. legit, my life is on the line here. Hope everyone is doin

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AnAshBlackSword

Apr 24, 2015

TAGGED AGAIN!! (my secret disney life)

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I got tagged again!! this time by the lovely YourTallestPinkamena (https://www.deviantart.com/yourtallestpinkamena) :D Go check her out as well, she's an amazing artist! Rules 1.) Post these rules on your journal entry. 2.) Answer the 10 questions asked by the person who tagged you. Then refer to the following link and choose 10 questions to post on your journal entry... 3.) You can tag as many people as you want. 4.) No tag-backs. 1.) If you could say anything to Walt Disney right now, what would it be? Damn you for killing off Mufasa because that ruined my childhood, but thank you for all the awesome addicting movies you produce! <33   2.) How did you first discover the "magic"

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V3R91L

Jan 16, 2020

In the event you still check dA... I was thinking about you again. It’s “Pinkamena”. If you ever see this... I’d like to touch bases just to know you’re okay.

YourTallestPinkamena

Oct 30, 2015

Ash? Where have you been?!

YourTallestPinkamena

Jul 28, 2015

What, can't talk to me?

YourTallestPinkamena

Jul 17, 2015

Why could you not just tell me that you wish not to speak to me? Please be honest if we are over. Ignoring me makes for bad feelings and often bad endings.

gelid-ataraxy

Jul 2, 2015

Thanks for the favessss!

Sunflowers-And-Fur

Jun 26, 2015

Thank you for the fave on my poem, means so much to me!

AnAshBlackSword

Jun 26, 2015

you're welcome! <33